It's been there the entire time, hasn't it?

...

It never left... it's always been there...

Right behind my eyes...

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scratching... trying to claw its way out of me

just to engulf me ; swallow me whole once more

it will go away, of that i'm sure

but it will be back...

god... it always comes back...

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It's so frustrating.

I feel it in the pit of my stomach.

Disgust. Almost the need to vomit.

There are so many attrocious tidal waves of rage that are crashing upon my shores inside.

I feel furious. I feel sad. I feel disgusted.

I want it all to stop.

I want to be able to take control.